When I first did a 25 Thingslist last year, it took me much longer than anticipated. MUCH. This year I started compiling my list months ago so I wouldn't have to wrack my brain in the late-December-post-holiday-haze to come up with all of them, and would you believe it still took more time than I thought? Perhaps that's because it's hard to look at your everyday life and see those moments as "accomplishments," or maybe the days just string together so quickly that it's hard to keep track of what exactly was the last week/month/year and their various goings-on. No matter the challenge, I am again grateful to have this list now that it is complete. 25 Things is a way for me to reflect and remember, and most of all, to celebrate that I get to participate as the world spins madly on (song reference, anyone?).
25 Things in 2014
1. Signed up for a 200 hr. intensive yoga teacher training!
2. Completed my 200 hr. iytt!
3. Began teaching yoga - at two different places!
4. Shared my hardest story ever. Whoosah.
5. Un-gave up drinking caffeinated coffee. Best decision ever. I may have spent a small fortune on McDonald's coffee since doing so.
6. Read 47 books. More than last year! Actually, that's if I finish my last novel before the ball drops at midnight. I have high hopes that it will happen!
7. Began my prenatal yoga certification process. P.S. Prenatal Yoga coming at avani in Feb. 2015 - tell your pregnant friends!
8. Tried - and loved - and consumed a fair amount of - sushi.
9. Sustained breastfeeding while being out of town for a whole month by pumping morning, noon, and night for four weeks. Whoa.
10. Worked on opening my heart and my hips (an emotional center within the physical body) as well as walking away from that which no longer serves me.
11. Completed 108 sun salutations. In a row! Twice! (summer and winter solstices)
12. Made strides in getting my poor sleep back in line. Lots of positive thought. Lots of deep breaths. Lots of counting my deep breaths at night!
13. Kept my cool when my oldest required five (five!) staples in his head.
14. Kept my cool when my oldest turned five (five!) this summer!
15. Taught three classes at CCC over the course of the year - all new texts, all new prep. That's a lot for someone who is "part-time."
16. Continued with Freezer Swap (participated in at least three exchanges throughout 2014) and did two major sets of my own - one in June and one in December. Crazy in the moment - awesome in weeks that follow.
17. Got three new tattoos - in one day!
18. Quit wearing antiperspirant in August and now go with just a natural deodorant. Several friends asked me if I crossed any more hippy dippy lines after yoga training; this would be one example of Yes!
19. Was fitted for and started sleeping with a mouth guard (yes, mouth guard) to keep from grinding my teeth/hurting my jaw at night. Love it, yes I do.
20. Survived my first root canal (my mouth had an interesting 2014).
21. Learned that using (and even paying $10 a month for) Spotify saves me a lot of iTunes purchases and still gives me amazing music fixes.
22. Edited another book. Still not my own. ;)
23. Did my first Upward Facing Bow. Smile City!
24. Finally got a sewing machine of my very own. And I used it! To great success!
25. Wrote 93 blog posts this year. Holy Moly Cow! Thanks, as always, for reading along!
Your turn! Take some time - perhaps more than you anticipate - and make your own list of 25 Thingsfor 2014. Big or small, silly or serious....what made your year yours?
WhooHoo! Here's to continuing a great tradition I started last year - recording all of the books I read within the 12 month time-span. Doing this keeps me reading and accountable, and when a friend asks "Have you read anything good lately?" I can come back to my list and go, Yes! Yes, I have! Books in 2014
1. It Sucked and then I Cried by Heather B. Armstrong -- Wow. Intense first read for the year. I had no idea this woman was responsible for the most popular blog ever but now I can see that it comes from her humor and her honesty.
2. The Rest of Her Life by Laura Moriarty -- accidental check out on this one; thought it was by one of my fave, new authors (Liane Moriarty). As it turns out, though, it was a good book and a great read.
3. The Moon and More by Sarah Dessen -- first YA read of the year & it was a good one.
4. Three Wishes by Liane Moriarty -- pretty sure I will read everything this woman has written/will write.
5. An Abundance of Katherines by John Green -- another new favorite author discovered last year. Will continue reading as many of his books as I can, too!
6. Where'd You Go, Bernadette by Maria Semple -- devoured this book. SO GOOD!
7. If I Stay by Gayle Forman -- found this on a "read b/f you see the movie" list and it's a good, quick read and will probably make a pretty good film.
8. Paper Towns by John Green -- another good YA read from Mr. Green.
9. Hands Free Mama by Rachel Macy Stafford -- first book from a friend's favorite blogger read for book club. Some good tips for as my kids get older and we all get busier.
11. Defending Jacob by William Landay -- whoa. Holy moly intense and good read. Head is still spinning from this one.
12. Promise Bound by Anne Greenwood Brown -- third book in the series. Over and out.
13. Quiet Mind: A Beginner's Guide to Meditation edited by Susan Piver -- I am such a beginner and need SO much practice. This seemed like a good place to start.
14. The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman -- whoa. This book is a pretty quick read but it was a total mind bender. And a little freaky for a gal w/ an overactive imagination such as myself!
15. Gap Creek by Robert Morgan -- Another intense novel. So glad my first year of marriage wasn't that tough.
16. The Love Affairs of Nathaniel P. by Adelle Waldman -- Had a love/hate relationship with this narrator, not to mention the vocabulary used in the book (I felt like I should have been rereading my GRE word flash cards and/or reading next to a dictionary).
17. The Road from Gap Creek by Robert Morgan -- Had no idea when I picked up Gap Creek a few weeks ago that there was a new, follow-up book told by the next generation of the Richards family. I really enjoyed this one, even more so than the first.
18. Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green and David Levithan -- how fun to write a book with a friend; these two did it well.
19. Escape from Mr. Lemoncello's Library by Chris Grabenstein -- Oh. My. This Jr.Fic. book is a book lover's dream! Such a fun read. If you are a fan of The Westing Game, this is a must read.
20. Secrets of Eden by Chris Bohjalian -- Holy Wow. Loved the different sections/different narrators (that really is one of my favorite literary devices; I find it impressive when authors can write with different voices, all telling the "same" story). But holy intense, too.
21. Flora and Ulysses by Kate DiCamillo -- Great Jr. Fic. read. What is normal anyway?
22. The 5 Love Languages by Gary Chapman -- Book Club read that I've been meaning to read for years. So thought-provoking to think about what makes you feel loved and how you can speak love to your S.O.!
23. Out of My Mind by Sharon M. Draper -- had no idea what I was getting into with this Jr.Fic. novel but wow, what a good read about an amazing protagonist with special needs. I would think this would be a good read for all upper elementary kids about the importance of really seeing others. 24. The Sand Castle Girls by Chris Bohjalian -- this is a good year for discovering new favorite authors and this one is a Top new fave, for sure. This was a heartbreaking but fascinating read. He is SO good at unique narratives/narrators. 25. Insurgent by Veronica Roth -- really should have reread Divergent again before jumping into this - way too much that I forgot which made it hard to get into this book. Hoping to read No.3 w/ less of a gap between volumes.
26. The Spectacular Now by Tim Tharp -- A few lines from this were in fact spectacular. The rest? Meh.
27. The Impossible Knife of Memory by Laurie Halse Anderson -- compelling read about a teenage girl and her former solider (with PTSD) father. Not a light read, but a good one.
28. Okay for Now by Gary Schmidt -- love this author and all of his books.
29. Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell -- this novel about "two misfits, one extraordinary love" was fantastic. Special bonus? The author is from (and the book is set in) Nebraska!
30. The Tree of Yoga by B.K.S. Iyengar -- perfect read prior to my teacher training adventure. So much wisdom here. So much underlining as I read! 31. Allegiant by Veronica Roth -- oof. Took me over 300 pages to get into this one and then the last 30 pages were a bit of a slog, too. When I start a series, I finish it, but meh - the first one, Divergent, was easily the best of the three.
32. A Wolf at the Table: A Memoir of My Father by Augusten Burroughs -- well that was an intense little memoir to read. Curious to read some more of his stuff.
33. You Don't Love Me Yet by Jonathan Lethem -- totally made me feel like a member of the band (and a wee bit crazy).
34. Wild by Cheryl Strayed -- love, love her writing, so I loved, loved this book - especially since I read it while embarking on my own crazy journey of a month-long intensive yoga teacher training.
35. Bhagavad Gita - a new translation by Stephen Mitchell -- beautiful. Can't wait to read it again.
36. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith - Oh. my. I hit a huge reading dry spell during August, so this book was a wonderful way to get back into reading. I adored it. Young girl growing up in an incredibly hard way of life. Beautiful storytelling.
37. Invention of Wings by Sue Monk Kidd -- Fascinating. Such a good book. I had no idea it was based on historical individuals, so not only was I inspired by the reading, but also educated. SO GOOD.
38. This is Where I Leave You by Jonathan Tropper -- truth? I read this because I thought the movie trailer looked good. No idea when I'll actually see the movie but it hardly matters because the book was so fantastic that there's no way the movie could even compare now!
39. Saving Cecelia Honeycutt by Beth Hoffman -- actual book I wanted from this author wasn't on the shelf so I grabbed this one instead. Sweet book.
40. The Imperfectionists by Tom Rachman -- bought this sometime last year on sale at B&N & am just now getting around to getting it off the shelf. The review on the back that states that "each chapter could stand alone as a memorable short story" is spot on accurate and I enjoyed reading it as such.
41. The Silent Wife by A. S. A. Harrison -- Well, that was a mind trip (replace with a different four-letter word).
42. Looking for Me by Beth Hoffman -- some absolutely beautiful lines/moments in this book. That being said, having read two novels by this author now, the whole "something happened but I'm not going to tell you what it is until a page or two later" is not my favorite literary device. Just saying.
43. The Paris Wife: A Novel by Paula McLain -- Wow. Loved this book. Made me instantly interested in reading more by Hemingway himself and more about his life and loves.
44. The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown -- This is it. Best nonfiction book of the year that I have read. Maybe best book overall. Hands down, every person should read this book. I know I'll be reading it again and again as I continue to explore my own imperfect gifts.
45. Sharp Objects by Gillian Flynn -- figured out "whodunit" but still not sure that made this a good read.
46. FanGIRL by Rainbow Rowell -- I know nothing of fan fiction, but this made me curious. I maybe also been totally biased by the UNL campus setting and mentions of my old grad school stomping ground - Love Library and Andrews Hall.
47. The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini -- now I see why, 10 years ago, everyone was raving about this book. So good!
TOP 5 for 2014 - if you are looking for reading recommendations from my list, start here!
1) Where'd Ya Go, Bernadette? by Maria Semple
2) Wild by Cheryl Strayed
3) A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith
4) Eleanor and Park by Rainbow Rowell
5) This is Where I Leave You by Jonathan Tropper
What suggestions do you have for me? Leave a comment here on the blog or on Facebook to let me know what I should read in the new year!
When we set out on Christmas Eve for our travels to see Ben's family for the holiday, the only potential blip I could foresee on our radar was a possible (and yet major) let-down from Santa because HD had specifically requested Angry Birds Transformers from the Jolly Old Elf and all this mama managed to get for his stocking were two ABT books. Still the right franchise and all, but I wasn't sure that one sticker book and one reader were actually going to win the 5.5 y/o over. Thankfully, the stocking surprises were still met with "Just what I wanted!" and dimples, so all was well and we had a really nice visit with the Welsch family. The children had a blast playing with their cousins and all the new toys yesterday, so even though LT did not nap well either day we were there or sleep well Christmas Eve night (no, there were no stripy pajamas involved) and yesterday by 3:30 p.m. I was beginning to wonder if Christmas is the longest.day.ever.in.the.history.of.all.the.days, it was a great holiday. Because of all the not-sleeping, however, we decided to come home today instead of tomorrow and were on the road early enough to be home by mid-morning. Until we weren't.
Just after we pulled off I-80 to come south into Hastings, the van decided it no longer wanted to accelerate. Ben was given no indication of anything happening - it just up and lost the ability to change gears. Thankfully we were no longer on the interstate and were able to coast down the hill/ramp to the nearby gas station where we parked, turned it off, and tried again, only to find that while we were safely off the road, we clearly weren't getting back on it anytime soon.
Ben got on the phone to our roadside assistance program (thank goodness for decent insurance!) and I instantly called a friend who I thought would be home and who I knew happened to have enough seats in her own vehicle to come get us, if need be. Thankfully she answered right away and was instantly on top of it, heading out the door to come get me and the kids. Ben ended up waiting (for over an hour and a half) for a tow truck to arrive so he and the van could get a lift to the dealership where we get it serviced in Hastings which is where it will remain until next week because, hi, it is the day after Christmas and no one else is open to even give us any answers much less estimates/repair timelines on how this is all going to resolve itself. Let's hope it is an alternator or some little electrical problem and not the transmission!
Anyway, thanks to Dear Miss L, the kids and I (and all of our luggage and presents - HD's main concern) got home in time to eat lunch and get the overly tired baby-man down for his nap which he is thankfully still taking. MUCH improved over the last two days, so I guess he is glad to be back in his own bed. I am glad to be home, too, especially since it appears that our trip home could have been much scarier/worse or might not have happened at all had this little (please, be little!) van trouble started any earlier. Not that Ben's folks wouldn't have housed us for as long as needed, but after a really busy few days, I think it is good we got the kiddos home so they can unwind and recoup on sleep and just take it easy while Ben and I are both around for the next week. Good thing we have all the new presents to keep us occupied since 1) we are more-or-less housebound - as a whole family, anyway - until who knows when and 2) who knows how expensive this fix will turn out to be! Any chance Santa brings new transmissions to good Mamas and Papas?!
Update: Transmission. If I click my heels together three times, will Santa please fix this for me?
For the last week (at least), I have been super excited, waiting for today to arrive. Not only is it Sunday (one of my fave days to teach yoga), it is also the Winter Solstice, which means in yoga world, time to celebrate the arrival of the new season with 108 Sun Salutations. Remember back (when Facebook was still letting people see blog links that I post!) to when I wrote about this in June? Participating in my first 108 with a studio full of yogis was so, so cool. It proved to be a physical challenge but one that was also super rewarding because it made me feel connected not only to my own body but the larger yoga community that exists both in my own town and around the world, too.
The beauty of this individual accomplishment that aligns so perfectly with group energy turned out to be very much the case again for the Winter Solstice, but in an entirely different way. Because this solstice happened to fall on a Sunday, the yoginis of avani decided, naturally, to hold the Winter 108 in place of my normal Sunday Flow, and it was given to me to lead. I was pumped and also a little bit like whoa because I know what a marathon this event can be and that there would be no way I could lead/complete at the same time. Cue and count and do all at the same time? Not for me, my friends! So instead, I figured out a way to count/keep track of my salutations on my own yesterday and after tossing and turning most of the night (is it time? is it time?!), I got up at 5:00 this morning and headed downstairs to complete my own yoga marathon well ahead of leading the one at the studio at 9:00. Here is what my mat looked like when I started:
The dark stones I used by moving one to the other side of the mat each time I completed a sun salute (if you don't know what one entails, read the link above from the Summer 108 - it details all the steps that equal one salutation). When all 10 shifted, I moved a clear stone to the right and then started moving the dark ones back again. I believe my Math Man husband called this a Base 10 system when I showed it to him? You know words are my thing, so that I devised a system that is actually a legitimate math Thing is fun, eh? The eight red stones lined up on the left were for the last eight rounds. At the studio we lead everyone through the first 100 as a group and then give them time to complete the last ones on their own, so I wanted to mark my final eight in a special way, too. And you know what? It totally worked!
It was dark when I started and when I ended (and OMG, apparently we needed to do many more SSs today because it is another gray day in a what has been about 1 hour of sunshine in the last 10 days!), but I had some soft light coming from the Christmas lights on our mantle to keep me going, as well as my beloved music, and my first 108 solo felt amazing. Last summer I could barely do five full salutations with full chaturangas (as opposed to on my knees), but today I did the first 54. How cool is that?! And even once I switched to my knees, I still caught myself sometimes in the middle of a full one before realizing my error, but c'mon - if you're going to make mistakes, this seems like a good route to go. Because it was early and I had the main floor of the house to myself, I took my time and completed in about an hour - just before the first Little came downstairs to find me, which was perfect.
After the rest of the house awoke, I was able to get cleaned up (because 108 brings not only the sun but also the heat!) and ready to head to the studio. Because my parents were here for early Christmas, Ben also got to come to the event which was so awesome because he's never been able to make it to one of my classes before and this was a pretty special one for him to hit. As for how it all went? Well, a few lessons learned.
1) Don't drink coffee prior to leading 108. I know enough to not do this before taking a yoga class now (learned the hard way), but oof. When you are super excited for an event, drinking coffee right before it starts is going to amp you up a wee bit too much. I'm a fast talker anyway, so trying to cue through the caffeine and my own energy level? It was a bit challenging at first!
2) Cueing 108 sun salutes is going to make you tongue tied. I chose to give breath and posture cues the whole way through and while I did well for probably 93% of them, the ones I did flub were rather comical (but perhaps, unfortunately, a little distracting for the yogis who joined me this morning). I don't care what you're trying to say - say it that many times in a row and you are going to make mistakes. As a result, each time an error occurred or when I felt my own monkey mind starting to wonder, I hoped right into the flow with my group, completing a dozen or more extra rounds throughout the studio event. While I thought this would be impossible because I'd be so shot from doing my own, it turned out that the extra ones actually felt great and grounding (which was good, because hi - see Lesson #1!). Again - the power of my practice and strength are such great gifts and when I look at how far I've come in a little over a year, I am floored.
3) Seeing your husband and friends and fellow teachers and students and local yogis complete 108, especially the last individual rounds, is a potential breeding ground for emotion. I was so honored to be there, much less leading the darn thing, so being witness to the energy, strength, determination, and beauty of all the people who joined me this morning? It got to me a little bit. The opportunity I've been given to teach and lead in a practice that means so much to me? Full as it may make the schedule some weeks, I don't take it for granted ever because I'm too honored and too humbled to be anything but grateful for the role I've been given.
After everyone finished and enjoyed their savasana, we celebrated and laughed and chatted for a while before everyone went on their way for the rest of their first day of Winter. When I made it back to the house, I hopped on the mat for one more round so Ben could snap some pics. Full disclosure? My arms were so tired, I about dropped on my face in chaturanga, but then I inhaled up into Upward Facing Dog and again felt my heart lift and fill with the joy of this day and this opportunity and this life. Whatever is to come in this new season, I am ready to greet it with warmth in my heart and a smile on my face. Best wishes that you may do the same!
Added bonus of the day? OMmazing leg warmers hand-knit by the daughter of one my favorite faces from the studio. I requested these all of two days ago and not only were they already done and so, so fantastic, they totally matched my outfit! The auspiciousness of 108 strikes again!
Sometimes the stars align and a gray and foggy Saturday turns out to be the best. day. EVER. After the hubbub of a holiday open house and prenatal training last weekend (which, oh my gosh, I didn't even write about!), I was pretty excited to have a quiet weekend at home this week. We had a great staycation over Thanksgiving and as much as I love getting to visit people, it was really lovely to have time at home. As you may have noticed from my various posts over the last few months, this fall has been a wee hectic just in our day-to-day life, so any time we get to slow down and just be (and be at home) is quite enjoyable. And even though today has been far from just at home or slow, it has been lovely.
First of all, I got to sleep in, which you babes in parentland (or pet parentland) know, is a rare occasion indeed. And it wasn't so much "sleeping in" as it was shutting the door and pretending to go back to sleep after the kids came in to open their Christmas book for the day at 6:30 a.m. sharp, and also pretending not to hear them as they played quite loudly before and after (during?) breakfast with their dad, but all the same, it was nice to linger under the covers/in the dark. I've picked up the pace with my yoga practice lately, which normally means I'd be at a class this morning, but I managed to hit three classes this week on top of the ones I taught, so I chose home this morning instead which felt nice, too.
Also nice was the fact that Ben already had plans to take the kids to a high school basketball game this morning so shortly after I "got up" they rolled out, leaving me to do some home yoga practice (think literal practice of Sun Salutations since avani will be hosting a 108 event on Dec. 21st for the Winter Solstice which I get to lead!) and laundry, before I headed out the door for some Christmas shopping (because hi, it's December 13th and I haven't done a bit of that yet. Whoops!). And while I did not make it to the Post Office this morning to ship said purchases, I'm still feeling better about the ever-present (ha - puny) To Do list that comes with December. Thanks to the hubs and kids for stopping at the store, we're also sugar-stocked so we can practice making some treats for HD's preK Christmas program which will take place next week. Side note: What gives H-town? We went to three different grocery stores throughout the day and no one, NO ONE, has Christmas (red) Oreos? How does that even happen?!
The true gift of today, however, came in dates that I got to have with both HD and RL. Truth? I originally planned a date with just Harrison that would take place while Raegan napped, but quickly realized this morning that she was going to be bummed by that, so after her nap, she and I headed out for our own girl time. But for HD, I picked up tickets weeks ago at our dentist's office for a free showing of The Polar Express at the Rivoli downtown. As you may remember from the book countdown, Harrison is a bit enthralled with TPE this year in part because we discovered the soundtrack on Spotify over Thanksgiving and he's loving this particular fast song (and will listen to it on repeat for 30+ minutes if you let him/can keep your ears from falling off for that duration):
So, yes. When I saw that TPE was one of the free holiday movies this year, I grabbed tickets, put it on the calendar, and was so excited to tell him about our date plans (but not until the day of because, whoa - if you don't know that parenting trick yet, it's a good one!). He was pumped, too, and we got there nice and early so we could grab good seats and a nice big (which was really the small, but wow) tub of popcorn.
We sat and talked about the movie theatre and the crowd and the book and all that until the movie started and then we settled in for the next hour-and-a-half show. Unlike the last movie date we had (which was the day before LT was born!), Harrison stayed in his own seat the whole time (as opposed to my lap), although there was a point in which he was very much leaning over on me (not that I was complaining). Also different was his agreement to leave before the credits were over (again, not complaining!), and in the lobby as we got his hat on before heading outside, he told me, "That was the best date ever!" Sweet boy! I thought, but then my heart about split in two (in a Grinch-growing-two-sizes-way) when we got back to the car and HD gave me a big hug, saying, "Thank you, Mama! Thank you for taking me!" before climbing in his seat. His eyes and voice were filled with emotion which made my eyes get a little teary because, goodness, do I love this kid. His sweet heart and ever-questioning sense of wonder make me so proud - it was so beautiful to be able to get some time for just the two of us and to see/feel how much he appreciated it, too. Who knew a free movie would turn into such a Kodak moment, but there ya have it - two happy souls post-movie:
And then it was Miss Raegan's turn. A friend of mine was hosting a liquidation party for a line of jewelry she used to sell, so I told Raegan pre-nap that we could go to that together and do some Christmas shopping, too, and sure enough, as soon as she got up from nap, she came running down the stairs to ask if it was time to go to see the jewelry. And because it was such a good deal (and because my friend S was so sweet to Raegge), RL walked away with a lovely collection (all in purple) which included a bow set, a toddler-sized bracelet, and her very first ring (butterfly shaped). I got a new necklace, and after we got home post third grocery store stop and quick side trip into Eileen's for a shared frosted Grinch cookie, we modeled our new finery for the boys:
Date night with the hubs is up next (the stay-in version which, after eight years of wedded bliss probably equals curled up on the couch watching a movie or starting a new show on Netflix) and while I'm sorry that Linky is the only one not to get any special one-on-one time today, I'm comforted by the fact that I got a few hugs and snuggles from as well as the fact that almost 1 1/2 yr-olds don't really understand the concept of dates yet and therefore can't get too mad at me for not keeping the face time totally equal today. This, by the way, is his classic Lincoln growling but happy monster face. :)
In terms of the weather, it was a less than beautiful day, but as for me and mine? It was a beyond beautiful day of time together in all kinds of combinations, and each filled with love.
Wishing you all some happy heart moments, too, as you continue your holiday prep!
Living in the present. This is a primary goal for many yogis/folks in general and there are some major benefits to doing so. Not wishing your days away? Another excellent approach to your life's journey, especially since none of us know the true sum of our endless numbered days (musical reference? anyone?). All that being said, though, I find myself entering December with a slight attitude of being ready to close out this calendar year.
2014? It's been a Dicken's-sort-of-year, and on many levels, I have worked my arse off during all of the ups and downs. Physically, mentally, and emotionally, this year has brought more challenge and growth than any other I can remember. From intense therapy sessions to my yoga marathon and now my three part-time jobs on top of the ever present full-time mama gig, I've had my hands full. And not that any of this schedule and plate spinning is going to go away, necessarily, but I guess I'm looking forward a bit to 2015 with the hope of it bringing more settling, more slow down, and more time to just be (which is ironic seeing as I'm tapping my toes waiting for January to arrive, not quite able or willing to just be in the now NOW. How very human and humbling is that?!).
For one, there won't be any more training marathons after January - at least not for a while. Once I finish my prenatal modules, I'm taking a step back from adding hours and certifications so I can focus on where my own practice is and really hone in on the prenatal stuff. I am so beyond excited to bring prenatal yoga to Hastings, but you can bet your sweet, sweet bippies that I want to do so in the best and safest manner possible for those mamas-to-be! So, yes. Time to study. Time to prepare. Time to practice. That is part of what I hope to find in 2015.
Another hope I have is to continue enjoying the progress I have made in the last year. The calm and the peace and the reserve I've been working on and stock piling? I already see their benefits when I'm able to handle the changes in schedule or the inevitables and randoms that pop up when you are parenting little Littles. Although, some days, I'm learning that the best approach is to fake it 'til I make it. Like today, when I wanted to put on my Eff You Tuesday pants (but opted for my pink elephant tank instead) when for the second time in as many weeks, my plans that I made for myself to have an actual daylight hours break away from the house mid-week fell through (dramatic pause and eyes closed HD glare when you say the next word) again. The first time it happened, I made a girlfriend laugh when I said, "Silly me. I thought I was actually going to get time to myself." But today felt less funny and more isolating than anything as it served as a reminder that during the day, I'm on my own. If a babysitter can't come, I can't get away. Duh, right? But when that reality smacks me in the face, especially when I've tried to carve out some time to take care of myself, it can be overwhelming and deflating.
The beauty in these moments of too much (and what feels, selfishly, like not enough) comes in the breath. That I am here and I am blessed to keep breathing. That I get to keep taking deep breaths as I fake my way through the let down or the sadness until suddenly I find myself on the other side. Sometimes it takes many, many breaths to get there, you know?
Today's other side? Brought to me by yoga, of course. I taught a lovely class this afternoon and quite openly acknowledged just how Tuesday-ish Tuesday can be. We laughed and we moved and we made it. Step One. Also boosting my spirits tonight? The fact that a babysitter did come through for this evening so the hubs and I could have yoga date night - one of our rare but favorite occurrences. Also also boosting? Today I observed, both when teaching and when taking, a shift in my body. Suddenly (even though I know it's not sudden - it's a year+ of work), my hips are more open and I'm coming deeper into pose after pose after pose. And for the first time ever? Tonight?! I got up in upward facing bow! Urdhva Dhanurasna (which is one of my favorite Sanskrit names because it sounds just as fierce as the pose is) in the house (or rather, on the mat!!!!)!!!!
Tried to recreate it at home - had to use the baseboard to help and yes, my hands are nowhere near where they need to be (under my shoulders) but are you kidding me?! This is huge progress!!!
So even though this day turned out to be not what I planned (wait. are they ever?), and I'm tired and the dishes still aren't done, I'm going to call it a success because it was another step. Toward the new year? In the right direction? To the yogini I desire to be? Yep, yep, and yep.
To continue taking breaths and steps - it is all any of us can hope to do.
December! How on earth is it December already (which I'm pretty sure is going to be one of the opening lines for my Christmas letter this year because, seriously, how is it even possible?)?! I guess it sure feels like it, now, not that you'll find me complaining about the high 70s we had on Saturday; my little family spent the whole day outside and soaked up every last ounce of warmth and sunshine we could. We knew we'd need it! Now that the freezing cold is here, most likely to stay, we've got to find other ways to keep warm and entertained, which leads me to our Christmas Book Countdown. We haven't ever tried any other sort of advent calendar, but we did a Christmas book a day last year in December and it was a great success. Well, the kids loved it, anyway, and even though I got very sloppy on my plans to record openings/reactions (see here), the grown ups in our house enjoyed it, too. Who doesn't love getting to open presents early (and what parent doesn't love gifts that will continue to give, year after year?!).
So here is this year's countdown. While this looks like the shortest post in the history of my blog, I'll keep adding to it throughout the month so we have list of this year's proceedings, no matter how rough my notes get as the actual holiday approaches. We have swapped out a few titles from last year, so some books aren't in the rotation at all, but the majority of them are ready and waiting in shiny snowflake wrapping paper under our tree right this minute.
1) The Night Before Christmas by Clement C. Moore -- HD got to pick first (RL opened - a pattern we'll keep reversing each day, as Linky is still too little to get it this year and we don't really want to encourage him grabbing and tearing anything from under the tree just yet!), and while he wanted oh. SO. Badly for the book to be The Polar Express, we got this one instead. HD was bummed but RL was excited and has been carrying it around the house this morning. Last year we took pictures of the kids opening their first book and then of them snuggled up in my lap reading it. This year, Ben supervised the grabbing of the book before he hopped in the shower to get ready for work and I did my best to pry my eyes open as they stood next to my bed, tearing off the paper and looking through it. What a difference a year makes, eh? But in all seriousness, we look forward to continuing this tradition and I am hoping they'll let their dear, old mama keep doing this for decades to come! And in all fairness, we got this pic yesterday when they were busy sorting them (and in HD's case, trying to decide which one might be TPE) and preparing to begin the countdown today. Love my little bookworms!
2) The Berenstain Bears Meet Santa Bear by Stan and Jan Berenstain -- well, obviously still no sign of TPE, but this title was still met with joyous exclamations (the children love TBB) and immediate crawling in bed, one on each side, by RL & HD for early-morning reading. Good stuff!
3) Richard Scarry's Best Christmas Book Ever
4) The Polar Express
5) Jingle Bells
6) The Legend of the Candy Cane by Lori Walburg
7) The Spirit of Christmas by Nancy Tilman - love her books.
8) Santa Comes to Nebraska
9) Busy Town Christmas Board Books
10) An Otis Christmas by Loren Long
11) Olivia Helps with Christmas! by Ian Falconer -- Oh, Olivia. You are so funny!!!
12) Thomas the Train: Christmas Delivery
13) The Christmas Story -- think managers, not pink bunny PJs.
14) A Star So Bright
15) The Nutcracker by Gail DeMarcken
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17) The Grinch Who Stole Christmas by Dr. Seuss
18) Home for Christmas by Jan Brett
19) The Best Christmas Ever - Junior Discovers Contentment by Dave Ramsey
20) The Twelve Days of Christmas by Jan Brett
21) Christmas in the Big Woods adopted Laura Ingalls Wilder
22) Stick Man by Julia Donaldson and Alex Scheffler
23) The Christmas Magic by Lauren Thompson
24) The Legend of St. Nicholas by Dandi Daley Mackcall
25) Merry Christmas, Curious George! by H. A. Rey
